[iTz_NoT_Me_iTzZu]

Originally Posted by Ilikemyscarf

I've never really been a people person. I found it ironic when I switched my major to psychology. It was interesting but I realized it wasn't my field. I'm not into dealing with people. I was just thinking about this recently. I don't think I'd have the friends I do if it wasn't for my younger sister. She's more outgoing, funny, sociable than I am. I'm exactly the opposite. I really don't know how people perceive me?? I don't know if it's just me or them?? This year I wanted to be different, I said I'd make my friendships work. I'd keep in touch with people. But it's not really working. Sometimes I think i'm going to end up spending my entire life by myself.

you could always be a cat lady

[heba]

Originally Posted by iTz_NoT_Me_iTzZu

you could always be a cat lady

[iTz_NoT_Me_iTzZu]

Originally Posted by heba

hahaha we are so on the same page

[Ilikemyscarf]

I've never really been a people person. So it was sort of ironic when I switched my major to psychology. It was interesting but I realized it wasn't my field. I'm not into dealing with people. I was just thinking about this recently. I don't think I'd have the friends I do if it wasn't for my younger sister. She's more outgoing, funny, sociable than I am. I'm exactly the opposite. I really don't know how people perceive me?? I don't know if it's just me or them?? I try to be sociable and outgoing. I make plans with my friends but it never works out. This year I wanted to be different, I said I'd make my friendships work. I feel like i've matured a little and I can even control my anger. I said I'd keep in touch with people. I'd call them. But it's not really working. Sometimes I think i'm going to end up alone all my life. I guess i'm just not used to it. I've also been told that I have a personality disorder. I act "affectionate" then at other times, I'm completely "aloof, distant."

[displaced]

Originally Posted by shsh

whats wrong with love marriage if its being taken through the correct route (ie getting parents involved)? why are parents so against it?

because it's not what they're used to.

[moonlightrose]

I had hiccups for the WHOLE day yesterday. They would randomly come and stop and then come again after a few hours.

most annoying thing. ever.

[MossadConspiracy]

Originally Posted by Ilikemyscarf

I've never really been a people person. So it was sort of ironic when I switched my major to psychology. It was interesting but I realized it wasn't my field. I'm not into dealing with people. I was just thinking about this recently. I don't think I'd have the friends I do if it wasn't for my younger sister. She's more outgoing, funny, sociable than I am. I'm exactly the opposite. I really don't know how people perceive me?? I don't know if it's just me or them?? I try to be sociable and outgoing. I make plans with my friends but it never works out. This year I wanted to be different, I said I'd make my friendships work. I feel like i've matured a little and I can even control my anger. I said I'd keep in touch with people. I'd call them. But it's not really working. Sometimes I think i'm going to end up alone all my life. I guess i'm just not used to it. I've also been told that I have a personality disorder. I act "affectionate" then at other times, I'm completely "aloof, distant."

chew bubble gum and blow bubbles all the time. your aloof and distant image will fade instantly

seriously try it

ws

[sally]

wow, lots of self reflection going on in here. i like.

so ummmmmm, me. well, i move a lot. and im in a relatively permanent place now (meanin i know ill move again in the future but probably a while down the line)

so i really hate being away from my friends..and i miss them.. even though seeing them everyday would suck and i'd get tired but if we were in the same city we wouldnt see each other much often anyway

so i basically have no heart whatsoever to befriend new people. i havent really befriended a new person for a long long time. by befriending i mean, you meet, 'click' exchange numbers, and meet up to hang out or whatever and introduce your friends to each other. i just dont feel like i can really become comfortable or like people enough to want to spend t ime with them.. the friends ive had have known me for a long time and know what i'm like and i dont have to explain my life story with them.

so i think its because any new people i meet are pretty much clueless about who i am and my life, and i dont wanna put effort into getting to know them so i just dont do it

and im sure it's not a lot of work but i just never feel like it. SIGH. maybe i should get a blog again. but on the other hand i just feel like after a certain point in life it's really hard to become close to new people because we're all so set in our thought processes, etc. more firm about defending our viewpoints..i dont know

i just dont think that im the type to do casual relationships anymore. i dont want to hang out with people i dont really feel like are my type. and most people dont feel like my type. maybe im just stuck up and think low of everyone.. or maybe im just different. so anyway, i like to think that the time i spend with people is not idle talk time but more meaningful.. i see way too many people blow money on dinners in expensive restaurants, coffee and dessert night after night with huge groups of people...oh, it's so and so's birthday today.. or so and so graduated.. or got a job. let's celebrate. i just dont see a point in doing that if half the people you're going to meet are gonna be total strangers to you. and there's gonna be a whole bunch of stupid conversation that doenst mean jack. small talk. YES. small talk

anyway so i would love to hang out with some cool new people but i pretty much put no time and effort into befriending anybody. and im often rude to new people. and also, i never have time because im either always at work or at school

im still content with the state of things but i think being such a loner isnt a good idea and i dont wanna be like 40 and think i never 'lived' it up in my youth.

i get to see my good old friends..the ones i dont have to really explain what i mean and they just GET me a few weeks out of the year and that's i guess, good enough?

the end.

[Ilikemyscarf]

I used to be like that, and I still am. I always find myself being so judgemental about people. I'm quick to point out the faults in others. Then I realized it would be better if I spent all that time and energy on bettering myself. So i'm trying to focus on myself more instead of worrying about other people.
This reminds me of a quote by some philosopher, "The unexamined life is not worth living."

[Nabisco007]

I'm not sure how I should be. Should I be career driven or tradional or try to balance them out?? I feel confused.

[heba]

career driven for me

[Ilikemyscarf]

Originally Posted by heba

career driven for me

just out of curiosity, why are u so against having kids?

[heba]

Originally Posted by Ilikemyscarf

just out of curiosity, why are u so against having kids?

i dont know if this is gunna sound immature (it will lol), but when i hear kids cry i seriously either want to put a muzzle on them, or throw them somewhere, or punch myself in the face or rip my eardrums out.

it is by far one of the worst sounds EVER (to me).

plus, i think having kids will ruin my life. i like to do random, spontaneous things, and if ihave a kid i cant. i feel like it totally will inhibit me from doing what i want, and i am pretty selfish, so i dont want anything to stop me from doing what i want. i want to travel. and i want to work. if i have kids ill feel like my 50,000$ spent on university will go to waste.

oh and plus im terrified to death of childbirth.

those are my main reasons.

[ChotooMotoo]

Originally Posted by heba

i dont know if this is gunna sound immature (it will lol), but when i hear kids cry i seriously either want to put a muzzle on them, or throw them somewhere, or punch myself in the face or rip my eardrums out.

it is by far one of the worst sounds EVER (to me).

plus, i think having kids will ruin my life. i like to do random, spontaneous things, and if ihave a kid i cant. i feel like it totally will inhibit me from doing what i want, and i am pretty selfish, so i dont want anything to stop me from doing what i want. i want to travel. and i want to work. if i have kids ill feel like my 50,000$ spent on university will go to waste.

oh and plus im terrified to death of childbirth.

those are my main reasons.

You're not alone. I think many many girls in their early 20's (even mid 20's) feel that way. The good thing is, you have another 15 years to have fun before the baby craziness kicks in, and you're willing to go to a sperm bank so long as you have a kid before you're 40.

My sister and sis-in-law are both going through that baby crazy stage right now.

[Sugarberry]

Originally Posted by Ilikemyscarf

just out of curiosity, why are u so against having kids?

are you for kids?