[flutterz]

i have a weird way of dealing with stuff. i drown myself in words... in a book or on a computer screen. and when i finally emerge on the other side, "stuff" is no longer an issue. i'm not sure if that's good or bad. the thing is i don't like reacting. i love the idea of not just a poker face but an entire poker exterior. i don't like to be under scrutiny while i'm processing stuff. because AFTER i'm done processing, i usually realize that sometimes when little meaningless things get under my skin, it's not the thing or the person, it's the state that i'm in at that time that makes it seem/feel not-so-good. i have to keep reminding myself that people never really grow up. most of our triggers are usually derivatives of the the five basic things that make babies fussy. hunger, lack of sleep, lack of warmth, physical discomfort/sickness and fatigue. and mostly it's a loaded combination of those conditions...
another thing is that there's already too much negativity in the world. if i can just keep mine to myself and drown it in words, perhaps there'll be a little more space for something more positive, something better, something bigger than all the little things that get under my skin.
it was such a beautiful day today... but beauty is relative. it shouldn't be... it should be absolute. perhaps it will be once we rise up above stuff... what will it take for me to not get stirred up into a storm... regardless of the fact that my storms are little breezes of air compared to what other people's storms are like. then again my world is made up of crisp dry leaves where even the tiniest breeze can wreak havoc. i've come so far, yet i'm so far away from where i need to be... i can't still the fluttering, i can't break the cage... my very existence is my biggest trial yet.

may Allah (swt) make our existence easy on us and on those around us... and may He bless us with patience and goodness of the heart and soul. ameen.

[Ilikemyscarf]

Originally Posted by flutterz

i have a weird way of dealing with stuff. i drown myself in words... in a book or on a computer screen. and when i finally emerge on the other side, "stuff" is no longer an issue. i'm not sure if that's good or bad. the thing is i don't like reacting. i love the idea of not just a poker face but an entire poker exterior. i don't like to be under scrutiny while i'm processing stuff. because AFTER i'm done processing, i usually realize that sometimes when little meaningless things get under my skin, it's not the thing or the person, it's the state that i'm in at that time that makes it seem/feel not-so-good. i have to keep reminding myself that people never really grow up. most of our triggers are usually derivatives of the the five basic things that make babies fussy. hunger, lack of sleep, lack of warmth, physical discomfort/sickness and fatigue. and mostly it's a loaded combination of those conditions...
another thing is that there's already too much negativity in the world. if i can just keep mine to myself and drown it in words, perhaps there'll be a little more space for something more positive, something better, something bigger than all the little things that get under my skin.
it was such a beautiful day today... but beauty is relative. it shouldn't be... it should be absolute. perhaps it will be once we rise up above stuff... what will it take for me
to not get stirred up into a storm... regardless of the fact that my storms are little breezes of air compared to what other people's storms are like. then again my world is made up of crisp dry leaves where even the tiniest breeze can wreak havoc. i've come so far, yet i'm so far away from where i need to be... i can't still the fluttering, i can't break the cage... my very existence is my biggest trial yet.

may Allah (swt) make our existence easy on us and on those around us... and may He bless us with patience and goodness of the heart and soul. ameen.

Do you have a blog?

[flutterz]

Originally Posted by Ilikemyscarf

Do you have a blog?

yes, it was a thread called "my thought(s) of the day" on old islamica that crashed and died and is no more.

i met your BFF at isna, you should've come too.

[sally]

Man, I know this'll sound like totally obvious but do NOT pull an all nighter in Ramadan, proceeding through the day awake and fasting.

Also, Aquafina water is like uh, soooo no comment.

Alhamdulillah for food and water though

[Timbit]

iSHi: Dunno what to sayyyy. Seems like he's not the best person to be with though... he hit her so that's abusive, plus he's being manipulative which is also abuse.

Sal: Yeah, Aquafina is disgusting. As is Dasani.
I carry water around with me everywhere, so I never have to buy bottles of Aquafina or Dasani (which is all they seem to sell everywhere? Stupid Coke and Pepsi).

Bruiny: Yay! Alhamdulillah.

Hebs: Whoo-hoo! You'll get the job.
I have an interview too, so yay!


Ahhhh, Chotoo's probably in labour right now!


In other news: I miss this prof of mine. I have two classes with him next semester but I was like "Omg, I wanna see him this semester!" so I dropped a class and added one with him. It used to be my only day off, but I don't mind going to school one afternoon just for his class. That's what I did last semester too. His lectures are totally worth it. I missed it this week, but yeah... next week.

[sally]

Someones profile picture on FB

[Sugarberry]

Originally Posted by serendipity_000

I never thought different standards of living would be a problem, but then I was also living in my idealistic glass tower. It really is something that can possibly cause friction.

I was interested in someone and he went out to dinner with my family and I recently. We ate at a restuarant that my family goes to somewhat regularly. In a show of bravado, he grabbed the check before my father could, but when he looked at it, it was well over a thousand dollars. He felt gutted when he couldn't pay it and talked about it for days afterwards. I don't want someone who feels that they don't quite measure up...ever.

a thousand dollars! damn...even with 18 people thats alot of money,

I think its good when people realize that its better to always marry someone in the same income bracket/family norms as you...cause it will cause alot of problems later on.

I know one couple where the girl wanted the guy to pay her law school of 60 grand plus....and since he didnt have the money she wanted him to take out loans.......that relationship ended quickly....and it really just shows that if a couple doesent view money and how to spend money, the same way ALOT of issues come up.

[thejellymill]

Originally Posted by ChotooMotoo

In other news: they did all my tests and decided that today is the day. No more waiting. I'm going to be induced starting in about 30 minutes. Dua's that it goes easy for me, and I have a nice healthy baby sometimes tomorrow.

OMA i'm soooooo excited!!!! I'm imagining that Chotoo is probly either still in labor ORRR has already had the baby? Inshallah everything went smoothly, you are in my dua's

omgosh this is so exciting... Congrats to all the other preggo fphers

Originally Posted by zakk

these are some of the ugliest things i've ever seen.

Good Morning Yahoo!

Uhhh ohh-kay..

Originally Posted by sally

Hi,
I *LOVE* white roses. Man.

Me too . I love all roses actually but a bouquet of fat deep-red roses mixed with white roses and baby's breath is just . I love how they smell. I would love to plant my own rose bushes inshallah when I get a place with some grass!

[Timbit]

It's not the biggest deal in the world to pay off your own student loans. I don't see why your husband should pay them off anyway, if it's debt you took on before marriage. I mean, it'd be nice if he wanted to and if you're commingling your funds, but it's not something he's obligated to do.

But if you're already married and your husband has a full-time job (or you have a job, say, and it's your husband that's going to school), then there's no reason, in my opinion, for you to take on loans. If somebody in your family can afford to pay your tuition, then why would you take on interest-bearing loans?




In other news, I could use some du'as.
I feel like

I was doing really well this Ramadan in terms of spiritual productivity and then stuff happened and now I'm not, but I'm still trying. Okay? Please and thank you.
I'm asking for a lot of them lately, but that's 'cause I've never needed as many before. Sigh.

[thejellymill]

Of course it's the individual's responsibility to pay off their own loans but like you said, if one spouse can afford it why take out loans? Bottom line is that being petty and selfish with money isn't something that should be a part of marriage...whether it's paying for college, for dinner or for something else and it doesn't match up when one spouse sees sharing money as part of marriage, but unfortunately the other does not

[Timbit]

True.

I was just trying to be nice and not be like "I'm sorry, your husband is odd."

[Asvi]

Originally Posted by Timbit

In other news, I could use some du'as.
I feel like

I was doing really well this Ramadan in terms of spiritual productivity and then stuff happened and now I'm not, but I'm still trying. Okay? Please and thank you.
I'm asking for a lot of them lately, but that's 'cause I've never needed as many before. Sigh.

Timby, i hope you feel better soon. Duas are on your way

So..it was my supervisors b-day today and they bought a strawberry cheesecake and cut it on my desk and ate around my desk. all i kept hearing was ooo...its sooo good. ..but i get to take it home with me though.

Chotoo: i'A i hope the delivery went well..and that mommy and baby are doing fine.

[serendipity_000]

Some of the Jewish men in my neighborhood are really creepy. They are always trying to offer money to the women who helps with my brother and another lady who works for us in exchange for "favours." That happens at night or in the evening...during the day they ignore everyone.



Insh'Allah I will keep everyone in my duas...

[afrakabob]

Originally Posted by serendipity_000

They are always trying to offer money to the women who helps with my brother and another lady who works for us in exchange for "favours."

Maybe they need help with yardwork. At night.