i ususally don't have too many issues with people and relationships (alhumdulillah) cuz i try not to think too much about stuff and tend to move on quickly (too quickly sometimes). my motto is to forgive and forget (or to apologize sincerely and forget, if i happen to be the culprit). also, i mostly don't let people get to me cuz it's not worth it. life is too short, there are better things etc. but this one person got to me the other night.
it was a nightmare. i got really upset and yelled at the person for like 5 minutes. i even told the person that if they didn't change the way they are, no one is gonna care even if/when they die. etc.
it's just that i can't stand it if anyone hurts the people i love/care for. i think i can forgive anyone for anything but i can't forgive if someone hurts my people. especially if the person they hurt is the person you've always been protective of. like your youngest sibling, someone who was born a premie and have spent their entire life struggling to catch up with others and can't really defend themselves very well. it hurts me to realize that people can be so cruel.
i don't know what to do with such people. there seems to be no future with them. it's like every time you see their face, it reminds you of your loved one and how this person hurt them. i don't know how other people deal with this, God forbid, if this ever happens to them. do you just cross this person off your list for like forever? sever ties with them completely? forget that they even exist in your world? what if you thought there was some hope that they'll get better but now that they've hurt your loved ones, there's no more hope. it's over. forever.
but a part of me wishes it wasn't like that. i don't like giving up on people... but this has to be the exception. cuz whenever i think of them, all i think of is the pain they caused my loved one. it makes me so mad. and somewhat sad too. i just hope n pray stuff like this doesn't become a
reality for anyone, inshaAllah.
