[jaani]

I'm feeling content.

No, not happy.

Satisfied. In a good way. But its an unexplainable feeling.

Because even though I feel satisfied to some extent, the dark shadows of gloom still cloud me. No matter how much happiness I find, I still cannot get rid of the feeling that I'm sad. I'm not okay.

But I feel okay, for now. Because I can run into my illusions and hide from reality.

It should be easy. I've been doing that forever.

My situation almost reminds me of the 'half full....half empty' idea.

~j