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My iman is lower than ever after going on a jamaat this weekend. Some scholar visited, and he had us reciet shahada, and I couldn't pronounce the first part correctly (I thought I was all this time), to which he said "do you even know what it translates to"

Then the leader of our jamaat was talking, and then he randomly pointed to me and asked if I knew what some Arabic word meant, and I didn't know, to which he said "look at our youth. They don't know anything". And he kept doing this all weekend long.

Then on the ride back, and someone said that one of Allah's (SWT) Days was like millions years in our time, so I inquired as to whether the Big Bang theory was possible because it says that earth was created in 6 days, so that would be billions of years in our time, which would make sense, and they were like "don't be ridiculous" and "only non-believers would say something like that, and you sound to me like a non-believer" and stuff like that.

And I'm really upset because I purposely failed a ten page test and an 8 page research paper so I could go on this jamaat, and I got nothing productive out of it. In fact, my iman is lower than ever now.

But yeah, I'm not sure if I'll go on another jamaat and I'm seriously thinking about not going to Jummah this Friday.