Salam
Jazak Allah Khair everyone. You are all very kind
We went to see her consultant today and yet another disappointment we had to face. I always thought Aleena is quite tall mashAllah but she hasn't even managed to reach the lowest centile in the height chart. Costello children are pretty short and the max height they can reach is 4ft i think.
Aleena's weight gain is poor for her age as she is barely putting on a lb a month. Her vomitting is bad. The consultant is going to refer her to an anti reflux operation which may inshAllah stop her vomitting and then they will put in a gastrostomy tube in her stomach for us to feed her through that.
I was thinking and have been thinking recently about when I was single, had so many problems and used to cry over that. But i never ever thought that the future would be even so difficult. I never even thought that there will be a very difficult challenge ahead of me. I dont know, i guess am in shock. You never think when you are pregnant that your baby will have problems etc. Then when they are born and they look normal, you definately dont think anything is wrong. It's hard because we bought her home, everything was normal, we were grieving for my nana. Then all this happened and now I am grieving for my daughter. I can't even explain. I am probably babbling. But this is a very difficult task Allah has set me and I am not sure if I will be strong enough to handle it.
Pls keep making duas and make dua that I dont lose faith in Allah.
Wsalam
