[the_only_one]

Originally Posted by Purple_alien

I tried the whole, "bring a friend" with me- my 2 sisters were there and my BGF. I knew everyone there except for like 2 people. It was supposed to be informal, and everyone had the information in front of them. I just said really dumb things, that made me sound dumb. Like, I have to go to church on Sunday, Who says stuff like that? I managed to get everything out, and got decent suggestions, but if more people come, I don't know if I can handle it. I think there are drugs to help with this problem, right? I was trying to explain why this group was different than other groups, and while I know how and why, it came off as like, "We are better because we don't have THEM" (It was a racial thing.) I didn't mean it like that, but my nerves just made me studder. I'm callin my doctor tomorrow and getting drugs. I can't keep doing this

don't be too hard on yourself. ppl are forbearing and forgiving especially if they know..it was all unintentional. well, i dont know much...but im assuming your doc might go along with some sort of "theraphy"+ might prescribe stuff like "Paxil/Zoloft". when im like that, i also spell out the truth in a plain crude way. once i said, "i see noone is respondin the group emails as if I am speaking to myself. can anyone be my companion for a day. so i dont feel like im speaking with myself". then i realized i just messed up big time. holla. my life moved on, not a big deal. even though, a lot of mishap happened, but i wouldnt deny the goodness that came out of it. all the best.

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similar note: I am extremely stressed about next week, i have few things coming up. i'd appreciate if fphers will keep me in their du3as.

thanks.