[Spice]

Its very easy to take on the colour of the people you live amongst or keep as company. You keep reminding yourself you hate this and this and promise yourself to never let them influence you, but if youre not careful you're going to become exactly what you hate and take on characteristics you point to in others and label as their flaws.
and how can we be sure we haven't become already? what if its there, in your heart, waiting to manifest at the next opportunity? will you hate yourself too? is that when you start pointing towards yourself, or are you so stubborn that you turn a blind eye to that which you think you can see so clearly in others? whats that called? being blind or capable of seeing more than others?

i hope to god by the end of this my heart doesn't turn to stone and passive to injustice. i don't want to be that. I dont want to be the one that has a different standard for every person. If one cant do it, then neither can the other. Though its too easy to adopt their way and 'go with the flow'. There's no thinking involved, its very easy to let the waves carry you but its very difficult to fight against them. you're going to be screwed through hell and over. But that's the price your going to pay. and if you decide to take that path know that youre going to lose everyone else on the way, because the rest will 'go with the flow'.

Let me be just, Ya Rabba.