Ok now I want to cry.
Now my stomach hurts and my head hurts and I feel like I want to hurl. The past few days I just don't want to eat and I'm hardly hungry but sometimes I'm hungry but then I look at food and I get this weird aversion.
And I'm sooooooo ticked at my sister I swear she has some nerve and she's such a brat. I know the last time I complained about my sister everyone was like "be understanding" or "you should be a better older sister" but I don't care I don't want to be understanding anymore. I have FIVE weeks with my family over the next seven months before I move away/get married. I don't want to spend it like this, ugh.
Ever since I got engaged, she's been acting really weird with me and I know it's because now she feels like she wants a companion/marriage (she's 16, sophomore in high school) and we're all like no dude you're too young we don't care if you other little git friends are getting engaged. Anyways, so like a few weeks ago she msg'd me to inform me that some khaleh was interested in her for her son and she was telling me how she doesn't like him because his jeans are too baggy and I told her that to not just focus on that superficial stuff but he's not a good guy anyway so he's not for you. Then she frikkin begged me exactly what he's done in the past and I told her that I told her everything she needs to know and she doesn't need to know anything else. Then she got all mad at me!
THEN the next day, she calls my husband in the middle of his work day to tell him the scenario and how we got into a fight! Like those kinds of actions can cause serious marital problems so of course I was livid. Alhamdulilah my husband didn't let it bother him and tried to explain to her my wisdom. When I confronted her about it she's like "what's the big deal, I just wanted to understand why you did what you did so I asked his opinion."
Whatever... anyways, my husband's theory was that she was just trying to find ways to tell certain people that folks are interested in her. I knew my parents would come down really hard on her if they found about this so I didn't tell them but since she was acting funny, my parents got it out of her eventually (and of course were pretty unhappy).
So since then she's defriended me on facebook, blocked me on all chat programs and it's like what did I do!? I've been understanding and patient, I bought her gifts to make her feel better, I'd try to befriend her in times of need, I threw her a birthday party (after which the next day she was whining about how nobody cares for her and I reminded her I threw her a birthday party and she's like "WHAT BIRTHDAY PARTY!") Even her own friends have come to me and told me that she has issues.
This morning she wanted to ask me something so she graciously unblocked me and asked me the question then reblocked me. No "how are you?" or "when are you coming home?"
At this point she's just being incredibly immature and selfish. Ugh, any sympathy I had for her is quickly disappearing.
I just want to finish with this stupid take home so I can go home.. I want my mommy
Alhamdulillah I have soooo many blessings, not trying to take away from that alhamdulillah, but still... I want my mommy